But it’s been scary — passing by the signs on your way to work that say “stay home and save lives”. It has been hard, wondering if your life is one of the lives that will be compromised. Knowing that your livelihood is dependent on this choice.
I work in healthcare, and the mental process I have had during this time is throwing on a mental armor to protect myself.
I told myself from the very beginning I was not allowed to feel this. I knew I couldn’t be scared. I knew that whatever emotions that I do have I must process them minimally and move on. But it’s been scary — passing by the signs on your way to work that say “stay home and save lives”. It has been hard, wondering if your life is one of the lives that will be compromised. Knowing that your livelihood is dependent on this choice. Wondering why there hasn’t been something implemented for care workers to feel safe & to express their fears and their concerns.
We’re worried too. Of course we have fears. But right now we are left alone to figure it out and fight it out.
This is such a hazardous time. But we’re not being paid hazard pay. When we all know we’re in a hazardous situation. It has been a big challenge.
God has been my total source. Every morning I wake up say a prayer and start off with my church music, hoping He knows my heart. And He knows I’m doing this because I love to be a part of life. I’m hoping that He’s holding my hand every step of the way.
In the middle of my day if I’m feeling a certain way, I listen to some more. And before I go to bed at night I make sure that I pray for the young, the rich, the wealthy, the sick and the shut in. Knowing that we’re all scared out of our mind; but Im a believer!
And have a strong faith. So I know we will Triumph through this.
I’ll tell you the truth I was a little hurt when they closed the doors of the office to the caregivers. We are not able to go in the building anymore — we drop off our time cards in paperwork through a slot. But we are still out here touching lives through your company. I still have to go out there and deal with clients without the proper accommodations or pay.
Healthcare providers are just as scared as any other person they just have to set their mental state different
— Abeni, CNA, Tacoma